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I have feelings of low self worth right now.
I am a good person, but I don't leave the house.
I don't leave the house because I don't feel worth it.
I don't feel worth it because I don't leave the house.
It is kind of this vicious cycle.
The outside world could harm me very badly.
Therefore I am unwilling to leave the house.
But inside the house is slowly hurting me by damaging
My self worth.
The internet is not helping my self worth either.
I look for jobs.
Apply
Send resume
Send cover letter.
Send my hope.
Only to not here back from anyone.
Like I don't exist even on the internet.
Which is kind of funny because there is so much on here nowadays.
That I quite literally don't exist.
Only to me
And I am unwilling to even share anything else with anyone.

It seems like I like to start a new line whenever I feel like it. This makes for a "poem"
I shouldn't even categorize this as a poem.
It's just a bunch of babble where I am telling and not SHOWing
Let me try to show you.
Picture me as a creature with a long tail, tiny ears, little hands and quick.
I search for food.
I search and search and search.
I might even find this food.
So I find this food and eat it.
This is my life and I am content.
Problem is I am not just an animal because I have emotions.
Sure we have a million years of evolution and we are still animals sylvia,
but we have all these emotions and don't know what to do with them.
We decided we had to communicate.
This expression led to more things than i would like to handle being
A small creature with a long tail, tiny ears, little hands and quick.
I have no qualities to live how I can express that I want to live.
Let's delve further.
I have the potential and qualities, but I don't have the means of obtaining.
a. money
b. my thoughts
c. my inherent survival need is not being fulfilled.

Shit. I need to get my needs fulfilled.