This is completely thoughtless writing.

I am a waste of life.

I do not change the world, but in negative ways.

Why am I here if I only affect earth to harm it?

Polluting it.

Sure I have a life, but life without humans would be better in general. The animal kingdom would prevail.

Does anyone else think like that? Like humans shouldn't exist because we mess it up. Similar to what was mentioned in The Matrix how humans are a virus.

God. I hate this right now. Fuck life.

Breast Feeding Moms.

Yes. I am like every individual out there. I want to suck on those titties. They're hot. Take those babies away. We don't need cow's milk anymore. Looks like these women are Mom enough for the hungry world. Mother's should unite and let the nation's hungry suck on the TEET of America.

This photo makes me proud of the tits and womb. Where endless babies will enter into the world.

In the name of Jesus Christ,
Amen.

So you go to college to change the world

College or university
For everyone you could be
From farm territory
To all swag and city
This is such a pity
Putting your hopes up
Getting that degree
That cost much money
And we see you sitting
In new York city
Wall street
Not landing on your feet
After graduation
You no longer function
The jobs disappeared
But your fully geared
And I hate you
As I watch you
Thoughts of changing
The world isn't budging
We all want caching
To buy nice things
So our kids can go
To college
To change the world.

Awaiting Adonis

 Adonis has a brother
That brother is the looks of an effeminate Apollo
And the heart of Aries
Fire in his eyes when he isn't taken care of
The rage toward his brother 
Released in one motion, commotion
Contact with skin, feeling of sin
He climbs a tree looking for someone to love him
Awaiting Adonis.
Smyrna awaits rooted in her sources. Connected.
She cares for Adonis through the trees
And for his brother hugged with leaves
Passion transfers from the shade, blocking the rage-filled sun,
Passerbys chill from the sweat on their back
Reminded of a mother's worry and sorrow.
Awaiting Adonis
King Cinyras paces running his nation
Knowing his son is in high elevation 
Elation from the pain: medication.
In this there is sedation.
Concentration on his country
And then amongst his own needs
No back to his people and planning and staring
Walking in the sun looking out on their faces
He crosses under a tree and feels a chill.
Awaiting Adonis 

Fear

I have a fear that I will not do what I want to do with my life.

Dr. Nancy McGinley

Saw my former superintendent, Dr. Nancy McGinley in the my current workplace. First time I have ever seen her. It's kind of funny that I didn't see her at my old job.

 I wanted to give her a piece of my mind so badly.

She was looking at expensive technology to buy for personal use. I am surprised she has time to have a life working for CCSD. I know that I didn't have a life when I worked there.

When I saw her, I got so mad that I wanted tell her about North Charleston High and how terrible it is doing. It's failing the students there, but that is not because the teachers do not work hard, it it because the students fail themselves.

Geez I am angry right now. Making me quit the thing I wanted to do since I was a little girl because I did n't feel like I was worth anything. Maybe that is more personal though. It is not her fault. It's America's fault, but America is a collection of people so technically I contribute to all of the fault even if it not entirely my burden.