Awaiting Adonis

 Adonis has a brother
That brother is the looks of an effeminate Apollo
And the heart of Aries
Fire in his eyes when he isn't taken care of
The rage toward his brother 
Released in one motion, commotion
Contact with skin, feeling of sin
He climbs a tree looking for someone to love him
Awaiting Adonis.
Smyrna awaits rooted in her sources. Connected.
She cares for Adonis through the trees
And for his brother hugged with leaves
Passion transfers from the shade, blocking the rage-filled sun,
Passerbys chill from the sweat on their back
Reminded of a mother's worry and sorrow.
Awaiting Adonis
King Cinyras paces running his nation
Knowing his son is in high elevation 
Elation from the pain: medication.
In this there is sedation.
Concentration on his country
And then amongst his own needs
No back to his people and planning and staring
Walking in the sun looking out on their faces
He crosses under a tree and feels a chill.
Awaiting Adonis 

Fear

I have a fear that I will not do what I want to do with my life.

Dr. Nancy McGinley

Saw my former superintendent, Dr. Nancy McGinley in the my current workplace. First time I have ever seen her. It's kind of funny that I didn't see her at my old job.

 I wanted to give her a piece of my mind so badly.

She was looking at expensive technology to buy for personal use. I am surprised she has time to have a life working for CCSD. I know that I didn't have a life when I worked there.

When I saw her, I got so mad that I wanted tell her about North Charleston High and how terrible it is doing. It's failing the students there, but that is not because the teachers do not work hard, it it because the students fail themselves.

Geez I am angry right now. Making me quit the thing I wanted to do since I was a little girl because I did n't feel like I was worth anything. Maybe that is more personal though. It is not her fault. It's America's fault, but America is a collection of people so technically I contribute to all of the fault even if it not entirely my burden.