Dear Christina,

Why I am mad at myself is because I am responsible for my own happiness.

I am not happy and I don't know how to please myself.

If I don't even know how to please myself, how is someone else going to know how to please me.

He rescinded his notion of wanting to marry me or have babies with me.

Those things no longer apply maybe.  If this is the case, then I can't be with me for obvious reasons.

I don't understand companionship.

I hate everything.

I don't like work today.

I hate how fickle I am.

I hate myself.

IF I HATE MYSELF, HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO LIVE WITH MYSELF?

I can't shake this feeling either.

I can't do it.

OR I am trying but obviously failing miserably.

Love brielle